I Love Jesus, but I’m Depressed

You know what I’ve come to learn about many people in the church? We can easily misinterpret things because of our own convictions or emotions. It’s true because of how I feel. You hear more comments like “well, I think”, “I don’t think the bible was implying this, I believe it was suggesting….” or more comments like that. However, no one is saying what the bible says, just what they think or feel.
“There is a way which seemeth right unto a man, but the end thereof are the ways of death.”‭‭ (Proverbs‬ ‭14:12‬)
I’ve also noticed that some people don’t understand the dynamics of spiritual warfare whatsoever, so they consider anything positive a blessing from God and everything negative the devil. That would be complete nonsense for us to believe the devil has so much power. Jesus said that ALL power was given to Him (Matthew 28:18), so the devil has no power over us. It is possible to be blessed and not have much. Blessings aren’t in possessions. It is possible to be cursed and have everything you want. We cannot say God is on our side because things are going our way. God does not change based off of our seasons (Hebrews 13:8). So in some parts of the church, we see there are some believers that really don’t understand that spiritual warfare is necessary and they are living based off emotions.
Then there are other believers that tend to “over-spiritualize” everything:
“Don’t claim that spirit, depression is of the devil!”
“You don’t have mental health issues, that’s the enemy coming against your mind!”
“The reason you’re in that season that you are in is because you have been in sin…. God must be teaching you a lesson.”
Those are just a few statements I’ve heard. Sadly, I must admit I used to say and believe things like this. I say it’s sad because I know now how we as Christians can be both ignorant and/or insensitive to the battles others are facing…. Until we are in those shoes.
And about the ninth hour Jesus cried with a loud voice, saying, Eli, Eli, lama sabachthani? that is to say, My God, my God, why hast thou forsaken me? (Matthew 27:46)
Now before you misinterpret where I am headed with this, just follow me. This verse is not to say Jesus was depressed. However, there are many believers that found themselves afraid, sad, depressed, suicidal, lonely, distressed, overwhelmed etc. There are points in our lives when we are doing no wrong yet we are feeling burdened. Which goes to show us, “bad things” don’t always happen to us because we are living in sin. Yes, sin has destructive outcomes, but righteousness can have negative consequences. People are killed for their faith daily. Moses was leading the people as God commanded, yet they only stressed him out (Exodus 32:19). Elijah was a mighty man of God, yet reached a point where he just wanted to die; maybe he even had a few suicidal thoughts pass his mind (1 Kings 19:4). David was a man after God’s heart, yet he found himself in very low points and feeling away from God (Psalms 13).
If you feel alone, just know that this season will pass. It is a season, God has not forgotten you. I used to think “weak-minded” Christians are the ones that experience depression or anxiety. Now I know that we are still human and susceptible to weakness. However, weak moments are some of the most spiritually enriching moments. Jesus said that His grace was sufficient for our weakness and that His strength  is made perfect in our weakness (2 Corinthians 12:7-10). You don’t have to feel ashamed to be broken. Jesus will mend the broken pieces of your heart, but you have to be bold enough to seek His presence (Hebrews 4:16). If you are depressed over someone who left, understand that God’s plan for your life is not attached to someone He removed from your life. If you are down about what you don’t have, please understand that God can supply all of your needs (Philippians 4:19). If you don’t have a reason and this season just comes often, please understand that God is able to to deliver again and again and again and again.
I still firmly believe that many of us are misunderstanding the power of God at times. God is a healer. God is a deliverer. I refuse to believe that God is able to come to earth as a man, die, and rise back up again, only to have SOME power. Jesus said that ALL power is in His hand (Matthew 28:18). So no, you can’t medicate a demonic spirit. Some sicknesses and mental issues are spiritual attacks. I know many may not believe that, but you cannot believe in Jesus and the Bible, yet fail to realize there is a devil and he comes to destroy us (Ephesians 6:10-12). That is why Jesus said that He will give us power over the adversary (Mark 16:16-18), because He knows that we will have to bind demonic spirits through His name.
I’ve been in many circumstances where I have seen demonic spirits manifest in someone’s life. Either someone else casted it out of their body, or I had to. Many think that stuff only happened in the bible, but the bible said these signs will follow us as believers. You may have certain spirits plaguing your mind, cast them out by speaking truth. I’ve seen many people come to me out of depression and I have to talk them out of suicide or something else very dangerous. When God said He was giving us power, it was so we could rise above the enemy’s plan and do His will (Acts 1:8).
10 Verses to memorize and quote when you’re going through depression:
  1. Psalm 42:5 & 11
  2. Psalms 34:1
  3. Philippians 4:8
  4. Deuteronomy 31:8
  5. Psalms 34:17
  6. Psalms 40:1-3
  7. 1 Peter 5:7
  8. John 16:33
  9. Isaiah 41:10
  10. Jeremiah 32:17

 

Of course, depression doesn’t leave overnight. I remember going through the lowest point in my life, because I was ostracized over a rumor. The only people I could trust were family and a few friends. It didn’t make sense to me because everyone that cut me off were so close to me. David said that he could understand if his enemies hated him, but being hurt by church family can be overwhelming (Psalms 55:12). The trick of the devil though is to allow you to isolate yourself from people, he wants you to shut down so you can become an easy target. However, when you feel the most alone is when you need to seek God the most. Have a spiritual leader to lean on and help strengthen you. When you feel no one understands, that is when you need to learn to express yourself instead of assuming that no one cares. I’m praying for all of you who may struggle with this.

Grace and peace,

Tovares Grey
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29 thoughts on “I Love Jesus, but I’m Depressed

  1. I was taken aback when I saw this post as I am in this very season. My calendar is booked to the max, yet I’m unmotivated to attend anything. I know why I feel this way and praying for it to pas quickly. Thank you for this piece because I will use it in my journey to regain peace.

  2. Thank you sooooooo much !!!! This certainly spoke to me . It gave me hope, peace and understanding that god will never leave us and to never be ashamed of him. To lean on him/faith thank for being a blessing to others who suffer in silence!!!

  3. Thank you for this, cause I am going through everything you just wrote, and I feel like God is sending this message to me! Thank you and God bless you!

  4. I have been struggling with depression for a major part of my life and being in denial has kept me in circles.this article has opened my eyes on things I didn’t want to see. Thanks

  5. This was right on time. I suffer from depression and I have been to ashamed to admit to it. It’s like a cycle. When I come out of it I feel as if I beat it and then something or someone happens and I’m back in my dark state of mind. My depression has ruined relationships, friendships, etc. I isolate myself from others when going through it because I don’t want anyone to see me in my weakest hour. Thank you for sharing this article

  6. After reading this it is nice to know I’m not crazy and I’m not alone. This depression state is not easy and I do believe it’s our test that will lead us to a closer relationship with the Almighty.

  7. Thank you soo much for this post! I’m struggling with this right now but I know I will make it through it!!!

  8. I have been trying to find the words to say exactly this for the longest time, but you sum it up PERFECTLY. Thank you so very much. I struggle with depression and anxiety, and being a Christian I feel like I’m letting down God and everyone else because I’m constantly being told “Christians should trust God and be happy” and if they aren’t that way then we don’t have a ‘relationship’ with God and we are faithless…. However, it is in my darkest hour times that I talk to God so deeply. I just wanna say thank you again for this reminder that we are humans and have faults but God loves us regardless and is waiting with open arms to embrace and comfort us in our time of need. Lets keep praying for each other!😊

    1. God has a way of working beyond our understanding and He can speak to us through depression. I may not have gone through depression but I had very very low points in my life and very broken moments and It is also in my most broken moments, that I spoke deepest to God. It is from those moments where like job, I used to hear of God but now I know God. So I give thanks to God for being merciful to me and you and us that in our weakest moments, in our weakness He comes down closer to us than ever and meets us there and walks with us. Every step of the way.

  9. Sometimes, God disciplines us as a result of our sin, so as to draw us back from straying away!!… Hebrews 12:6 says, “For whom the Lord loves he chastens, and scourges every son whom he receives” (KJV). Another word for “chasten” is “discipline.” The passage goes on to quote Proverbs 3:11-12, which says, “My son, do not despise the Lord’s discipline and do not resent his rebuke, because the Lord disciplines those he loves, as a father the son he delights in.” Proper discipline is a proof of love.

  10. This is something I have been going through and dealing with personally. I’m comforted that if I make my bed in hell (often hoe dark depression can make us feel) He is with me.

  11. Who knew I would come across this at this present time in my life. I literally heard the Lord and his compassion with every word written. Thank you Tovares. ❤

  12. This was definitely what I needed to hear . I’ve been hurt deeply by a close family friend and it’s true getting hurt by church family can feel overwhelming. I’m so thankful God led me to read this blog. I’ve been feeling myself fall into depression and really struggling to handle this situation without feeling bitterness and pain.

  13. Thank you for this post! By speak the truth what for you mean by that? Like just generally speak the truth? Or speak th3 truth about your own life?

  14. Exactly what I needed to hear as well. Thank you.
    Here’s one a friend with deppression shared with me that I feel would be good to memorize:
    Micah 7:8
    Rejoice not against me, O mine enemy; when I fall, I shall arise; when I sit in darkness, the Lord shall be a light unto me.

    Have a wonderful day!!!! ❤ Blessings in Jesus!

  15. I just ended my relationship with my ex and that was the turning point in my life. I cried out to God everyday for healing and deliverance. It’s amazing how He showed me the Love I deserved. I am free from the feelings of rejection and hurt from my ex boyfriend but now, I feel empty, not because of being single again. I just feel empty, but I will stand with Jesus because in Him, I find my worth. My depression is not who I am. I am more than this because of Jesus. Thank you for this.

  16. I am going rhythms and it’s hard to turn to God for this since I feel like I am just not worthy and friends that I believed would understand make me feel worse to the point that I just want to be alone. I now understand that what am going through is normal and it to shall pass I keep praying and reading and force myself to speak and go out with people even when I just want to be alone

  17. Thank you for this article. I’ve been depressed for about 6 years now. It’s not what I wish for, but I got it anyway. I do pray to God to heal me. Just like the others, I isolate myself, to the point that I don’t want to get out of my home. I’m also suffering from anxiety and panic attacks. I will keep on praying to God and read the suggested verses.

  18. Just to share . I’m suffering with depression this time. But I know that this is bec of my consequences. I cant pretend that i can handle it by my own. I really dont know how to overcome this every day I pray to God. For his guidance bec. I felt so tired. I need comfort. So much

  19. I would to believe that this is God who lead me to this post.Literally two weeks ago I was ready for death I don’t know how many time I thought about actually killing myself .I left all alone I wanted to talk to someone I wanted to seek God and ask him to help me but I felt so ashamed and I just felt like he wouldn’t hear me. My close friends and family have been tell me am distant and I just wanted to be alone yet I needed and wanted someone to see my state and make me feel better make me want to carry on . I don’t really think I want to die I just want to be at peace spiritually. I am drained physically mentally and spiritually. I am thankful for this post because I felt like NO one understands even if I said something. I see God working …

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